the trouble with a fear – of something, someone, anything – is that it requires resources to operate and exist.
by resources, i mean your energy. by energy, i would suggest mental, physical, psychological energy, which essentially means it requires part of you – in this fantastic individuation that you are – to exist, including your willingness to allow it.
any fear, you name it, implies you’ve entered into an agreement with the universe on some level, saying that “right, you and i are making this up for our mutual benefit, or something, cool?” and the universe, as always, simply answers “yes”.
now, given that you can decide which experience you’d prefer to go through in any given moment, be it good/bad, happy/sad, heavy/light, in this instance you’ve chosen the dark side, because fear by definition demands it, no? you don’t often hear people spouting off about their love and admiration of themselves and how they are afraid of something (man, i am scared shitless of <this and/or that>. even thinking about it makes me all squirmy… isn’t that awesome?), or if you do, they have some strange egoic fascination with broadcasting their depth of illusion. on the flipside of that coin however, announcing your fear of something may also be acknowledgement and assuming responsibility of said fear. you decide. the latter may be quite empowering…
going back to energetics, each fear you have is like an app running on your computer, or “smart” phone. even if you’re not always aware of it, it’s still there, running in the background, eating up a piece of your consciousness, which could likely serve you best elsewhere in your life. in time, and through life experience, you can build up quite a mass of these fears, and imagine what it’s like in the “back of your mind” if you’ve never faced some of these nasties (most of which would be rather insignificant on their own), and have only managed to keep stringing them along, having to implement and devise new, stronger, larger luggage to store them in (ie. ulcers, cancer, and a vast array of other maladies, or perhaps all of them – spiritual becomes physical)!
one thing i enjoy, and it’s rather trivial, is in the metaphor of the smartphone, using an app such as a “task killer” which allows you to with one tap of a button, to shut down all background noise, immediately freeing up resources. the parallel to this in us would likely be a combination of meditation, cleansing, joy, passion, joie de vivre, etc. to simply wipe out all those niggling fears would take some serious decision-making, conscious effort, and an instant knowing that everything is OK. transcending all that noise is rather simple in concept, but as with much of this personal/spiritual/non-physical work, it is as individual a solution as you are.
for some, it can happen as a single, revelatory experience. suddenly, you’re awake.
for others, and i’d wager the majority, it takes a diligent effort – first to find the methods, channels and modalities that will help you take the first few steps, and then to simply walk the walk. eventually, we all end up in the same place — back at clarity. when you can look around you at all the apparent chaos, strangeness, inequality, vast imbalances, and say “but it’s OK – that’s part of the process” then you’re onto something.
remember though, that even utilizing something akin to a “task killer” some fears/programs will re-install themselves almost instantly. a terminate-and-stay-resident sort of issue where that energy, though subtle, may linger and remain. you then have the choice to either keep trying to shut it down (ie. “fighting it” which is counterproductive), or move past and through it.
some fears are useful, and when you examine them in the right light (so you can properly see the shadow for what it is) you see they really aren’t a fear at all.
love your life,
tb
